#16-20
16. Do I justify my working hard by saying I play hard?
I don't play hard. I work hard and then I relax hard (some times it is acutally "crashing" but other times it is genuinely relaxing). I do know I need chunks of alone time to maintain my balance. When I am feelign stressed I don't like to go "dance it off" or be with large groups of people. I like to be alone or one on one.
17. Do I consider being called slow, lazy, or inefficient terrible insults?
To be honest I have never been called these things. I think I would find being called lazy the most insulting. Slow vs fast it is all relative. I get impatient with people that are slower than me. But at the same time I have extreme patience with those who are "justifyably" slower than me (Not necessarily in the world world) but the elderly, the infirm or disabled and children. If someone called me inefficient I would ask them what a more efficient way of doing XYZ was in their opinion.
18. Do I set unreasonable goals? Am I proud of them?
I put unreasonable pressure on myself to always have it "under control" and at a "manageable state" Personal goals I have gotten better with. I want a house but realize that it will come in due/good time when it is meant to. This doesn't mean I don't still feel frustrated at times but I have gotten better at accepting things as they are. Except financial struggles that is the one area that is still hard hard hard for me.
When it comes to goals i.e. what I will get done this weekend. I have to say I have gotten MUCH better. I still make lists like crazy but its OK if it doesn't all get done. I used to think I had to keep a perfect house (like my mom) to be successful. Now I don't think that so much. I still clean like crazy before having a party or before having my parents over but not obsessively and the house usually needs it anyway. I do wish I could get more done around the house (i.e. cleaning the blinds and washing the curtains) but I have come to realize that I work full time and I can only do so much. Honestly when I do look a the dirty blinds I wish they were clean, but I don't want to spend all my not at work time cleaning either. I guess I can get a little lazy like that.
19. Have my co-workers become closer to me than my own family?
In many ways yes. It is easy to have quick non-work conversations with your co-workers because you spend so much time with them. The often "understand" what the trials and tribulations of work are more than a family member can. They can sympathize with you more without you having to explain it all over again.
The itnteresting thing is that often times when I explain it to someone outside of the work environment, how over the top the work is, or how late nights are getting to me, they usually look at me and say something completely rational and simple like , "well you better talk to your boss about that." or "You better cut back your hours or you will get sick". As right as they are it often makes me want to cringe because I feel like they do not "understand". It is always easier to give advice than to take it.
20. Am I proud of my perfectionism?
No because I do not feel at all like I am perfect. Most days I feel like I am tettering on the edge of getting it right or somedays just feeling like "how did I get here?"
I don't play hard. I work hard and then I relax hard (some times it is acutally "crashing" but other times it is genuinely relaxing). I do know I need chunks of alone time to maintain my balance. When I am feelign stressed I don't like to go "dance it off" or be with large groups of people. I like to be alone or one on one.
17. Do I consider being called slow, lazy, or inefficient terrible insults?
To be honest I have never been called these things. I think I would find being called lazy the most insulting. Slow vs fast it is all relative. I get impatient with people that are slower than me. But at the same time I have extreme patience with those who are "justifyably" slower than me (Not necessarily in the world world) but the elderly, the infirm or disabled and children. If someone called me inefficient I would ask them what a more efficient way of doing XYZ was in their opinion.
18. Do I set unreasonable goals? Am I proud of them?
I put unreasonable pressure on myself to always have it "under control" and at a "manageable state" Personal goals I have gotten better with. I want a house but realize that it will come in due/good time when it is meant to. This doesn't mean I don't still feel frustrated at times but I have gotten better at accepting things as they are. Except financial struggles that is the one area that is still hard hard hard for me.
When it comes to goals i.e. what I will get done this weekend. I have to say I have gotten MUCH better. I still make lists like crazy but its OK if it doesn't all get done. I used to think I had to keep a perfect house (like my mom) to be successful. Now I don't think that so much. I still clean like crazy before having a party or before having my parents over but not obsessively and the house usually needs it anyway. I do wish I could get more done around the house (i.e. cleaning the blinds and washing the curtains) but I have come to realize that I work full time and I can only do so much. Honestly when I do look a the dirty blinds I wish they were clean, but I don't want to spend all my not at work time cleaning either. I guess I can get a little lazy like that.
19. Have my co-workers become closer to me than my own family?
In many ways yes. It is easy to have quick non-work conversations with your co-workers because you spend so much time with them. The often "understand" what the trials and tribulations of work are more than a family member can. They can sympathize with you more without you having to explain it all over again.
The itnteresting thing is that often times when I explain it to someone outside of the work environment, how over the top the work is, or how late nights are getting to me, they usually look at me and say something completely rational and simple like , "well you better talk to your boss about that." or "You better cut back your hours or you will get sick". As right as they are it often makes me want to cringe because I feel like they do not "understand". It is always easier to give advice than to take it.
20. Am I proud of my perfectionism?
No because I do not feel at all like I am perfect. Most days I feel like I am tettering on the edge of getting it right or somedays just feeling like "how did I get here?"
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