More insight into #11-15
My parents and I have talked about a lot of this. They are very supportive of me In every way. My parents are CONSTANTLY saying "all we want is for you to be happy", or "your happiness is the best gift we can get." It is very true that "they are much more humane and forgiving of [me] than [I am] of yourself," as a fellow WA said.
This is my biggest struggle-- I know that other people accept me for who I am, forgive me my faults more easily than I forgive myself and believe I have a lot to celebrate. Yet I still challenge it all all the time. For example being the sole provider for two people while my husband went to school IS an accomplishment I should be proud of. But yet there is some feeling on my part of "where would I be now if I didn't have to do that?" I didn't HAVE to do it, I chose to. I think this gets into a deeper issue of me accepting where I am in my life at this moment and valuing it for what it is rather than wondering what if's?
Celebrating my accomplishments - yea I should do this more and I think once I can believe in my own successess then I will be able to do this better. Work on one to get to the other so to speak.
As for delegating work that is something that I will have to try out in my own life since right now at work being so new I am the one being delegated too. Which as I said is fine with me. See the thing is I am not out to climb a corporate ladder or be on the cover of FORTUNE magazine.
All I want is to do an honest days work for an honest day's pay. May sound like a simpleton's viewpoint to some but I work to get paid not to as you said: "to grow a business or job bigger."
As much of a Workaholic as I can be I don't work because I enjoy it or because I want to achieve greatness through work. I work to get paid. There are 25 things I could name off the bat that I would rather do with my time that I think would be worthwhile and more in line with "ME"; the crux is that I have a level of financial responsiblity that I cannot lower at least not right now.
So for now the balance is to work a manageable week (no more than 40 hours) to allow myself enough time to persure what does interest and grow me in a way that I enjoy. In a perfect world the two would align. In reality it is a balance.
This is my biggest struggle-- I know that other people accept me for who I am, forgive me my faults more easily than I forgive myself and believe I have a lot to celebrate. Yet I still challenge it all all the time. For example being the sole provider for two people while my husband went to school IS an accomplishment I should be proud of. But yet there is some feeling on my part of "where would I be now if I didn't have to do that?" I didn't HAVE to do it, I chose to. I think this gets into a deeper issue of me accepting where I am in my life at this moment and valuing it for what it is rather than wondering what if's?
Celebrating my accomplishments - yea I should do this more and I think once I can believe in my own successess then I will be able to do this better. Work on one to get to the other so to speak.
As for delegating work that is something that I will have to try out in my own life since right now at work being so new I am the one being delegated too. Which as I said is fine with me. See the thing is I am not out to climb a corporate ladder or be on the cover of FORTUNE magazine.
All I want is to do an honest days work for an honest day's pay. May sound like a simpleton's viewpoint to some but I work to get paid not to as you said: "to grow a business or job bigger."
As much of a Workaholic as I can be I don't work because I enjoy it or because I want to achieve greatness through work. I work to get paid. There are 25 things I could name off the bat that I would rather do with my time that I think would be worthwhile and more in line with "ME"; the crux is that I have a level of financial responsiblity that I cannot lower at least not right now.
So for now the balance is to work a manageable week (no more than 40 hours) to allow myself enough time to persure what does interest and grow me in a way that I enjoy. In a perfect world the two would align. In reality it is a balance.
posted by justme @ 4:10 PM
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